Learning to Trust

Wow, it has been a while since I have last posted, almost an entire year. It has been a whole busy year focusing at work, and school. Trying to seek balance in life has not been easy. I had started my practicum last year, so that kept me really busy. I am currently, still seeing clients as a student counselor, and working full time, and going to school. How do I manage, you may ask? Well, I have a support system. I could not do it on my own. My husband is a huge support, and motivates me when I am feeling discouraged. Life has taught us a lot of lessons. Life challenges are lessons that need to be learned in order to grow, or to take us to the next level in life. I am currently in a stage of learning. I am learning to trust the process, and most importantly trusting in God. It is easy to tell people to just trust in the Lord, and everything will be okay, because we are not physically going through the same trials as our neighbor, it is not our lesson to learn. However, when you are on your knees begging for strength to keep going, and to put all your problems to God, it is when He lift us up, and hugs us with His immense love. In that moment of trial you start learning to trust in God. It is a process. Every lesson learned takes time. Some days will be easier than others. For example, I don’t become a counselor by taking one class, and then BOOM I get my license. Even though that would have been great, I would have save a lot of money, and time, but then I wouldn’t be an adequate counselor. However, I am starting to trust the process, and that each stage I have challenges that will equip me to be a wife, a daughter, a sister, and a counselor. Learn to trust the process. 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. – Proverbs 3:5

Pray for world peace!

The mind is powerful, it has potential to change our emotions, and the perspective we view the world. Because it is powerful it is important for my mind to be fed with the power of God. Today I am thankful for my life, and for being prosperous in health. I am thankful for a loving husband, and a supportive family. I pray for healing in our world. There are people who are hurting financially, mentally, and physically. This is a time people can seek for inner peace. The world is silent. Get off your phone for a couple of days, and enjoy the moment. This week I will seek self-awareness of my physical body, and mind. I will be fasting, and praying for the world. I want my mind to be at peace, and I want to grow my relationship with God. I will be praying for guidance, and direction in this path of life. I will take a moment and acknowledge the love the Lord has for my life.

“Even now,” declares the LORD, “return to me with all your heart, with fasting, and weeping, and mourning.” Rend your heart and not your garments. Return to the LORD your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity. -JOEL 2:12-13

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He has Risen!

Pause for a moment. Breathe and feel refresh. Life is about experiencing moments, and living with a purpose. He has risen to give us an opportunity to seek him whole-heartedly. His word is water to my soul, and a prayer gives energy to my spirit. Everyday I want to strengthen my faith. I can lack in many areas of my life, but through trials I want to run to His arms, and have hope for a better tomorrow. 

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die, Do you believe this?” John 11:25-26

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The Art of Life

Life is beautiful. Life is not easy. Each day it’s a challenge to move forward and enjoy the beauty within us. We are all unique, and have our own battles. I personally struggle with self-motivation from time to time. I have a goal and a dream for my personal life. I have a plan and it seems like forever to reach. Time will always pass us by. Time does not stop for us to figure out our next decision. I choose to let time pass by as I live moment by moment. Living the moment will lead to fulfill our purpose in life. Breathe in, and know you are free to be human. A human who is imperfect, but is willing to grow and learn. Always live with purpose. Let your soul guide you into the art of life.

BE PRESENT.

It is so easy to get lost in our own world, and not really care about your self, or your well-being. I sometimes get caught up with work, and school. I realized a lot of things that would upset me, or that would bring me happiness were fading. I started to care less, about others and about myself. I mean at some degree I would care, but I was not being present in the moment. There were people in my life who would sometimes drained me, and they slowly started to fade away on their own. I was not sure if that was the whole idea of being an adult, but along the way I started building new friendships. Friendships that I knew would last a life time. Friendships who are there physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I realized the true meaning of friendship was not always going wild, telling secrets, or talk about girl drama. When hanging out It became personal, and meaningful. It would nourished my soul, and I became more present with my friendships. I started to grow personally and professionally in my career. I do not know where my future is headed, but I know that I will be present, and aware of my senses.

Listen to the Whisper of Love

Laughing our problems away. There were times I would take life so seriously, and wanted life according to society’s timeline. I know a lot of people have said “everyone has their own time line and to not get caught up with what society wants”. I understood soon enough that life was not a rush nor a competition. I had to take one step at a time. I had to stop at every step and enjoy it. I always had a an agenda with goals and plans of life. And boy, if that did not go accordingly to my plans, I would freak, and get anxious. However, this year I have let life be. Just going with the flow and started accepting where I am in life, and visualizing where I wanted to be without compromising myself or people around me. We are all uniquely different, and have so many gifts to share with this world. Gifts are not always materialistic things, it is sharing your love, joy, and kindness to others. Sometimes people just want someone to just listen, and to be there. You don’t always have to understand the thoughts or acts of people. You can listen and love.

Learning to be Patient!

Today I woke up grateful about where I am at in life. I may not have much, but I do have an amazing and supportive man as a husband. Now, I was not always grateful, I nagged a lot about where I was at in life, and always lived life wishing. Wishing to graduate from college, wishing for a better job, wishing for a better car, wishing for more money, wishing to be married, wishing, wishing, and wishing. It was never an end to my wishing. Do not get me wrong it is okay to desire, and have big dreams. However, it is important to desire it with a good attitude, and trusting the process in life. I would always ask my husband how he maintained a positive attitude during our hard times, and he would always say, ” I trust in God”. of course, I would look at him and say “SO DO I!! But I am still anxious!” I wanted to run and achieve my goals in life from one night to the next morning. I had to really learn the term PATIENCE. I worked with children with autism, and really thought I had this whole patience ability down. I was wrong. Patience is not only tolerating children’s behavior without getting upset or frustrated. There has to be a fundamental process to gain patience. I had to seek for an internal purpose in order to have the patience. My purpose as an RBT therapist, is to give a quality session that will make a difference in the long run. I may not see a difference in the child’s behavior the next day, but I probably will in a couple of months. I had to really take a look at my life, and analyze my purpose of being in this world. Live life step, by step, and enjoy the present.

Growth

I am a human with so many flaws. I have gained and lost friends. It’s part of life as we grow older and develop into our new stage of life. Each stage it’s so crucial, you will not only learn so much about yourself, but you learn how much your presence can affect others. I have to remind myself to keep on pushing. If I am breathing than I need to live a beautiful life. There are moments in my life that I feel behind or left out within the generations. Growing into a positive mindset takes time, and practice. Trusting the process of our destiny. We don’t always wake up everyday and like the persona that is reflected in the mirror. Sometimes we will feel discouraged, and even contemplate life. Everyone has doubted their purpose in life once.

I encourage you to keep pushing and breathing this beautiful life. Be yourself, and always stand to what you believe in. Always trust the purpose. A tree grows every year, and regardless of the changes in the environment, it evolves within the seasons each year. A tree will never stop being a tree during cold winter days. So you will never stop being you regardless of your environment changes. You will grow, and evolve exactly where you need to be in life.

Starting all over…

I am not the person who takes life too seriously. I am free spirited, and respect everyones opinion about life and their beliefs. I am aware we are all different and unique in our own special way. There are times in our life we end a chapter to start a new one. There was a teacher in my high school who would always say “it’s okay to start all over”. However, I don’t believe we necessarily start all over. We simply start a new mission in life, and take everything we have learned to accomplish our ultimate purpose. You live and you learn. You breathe and you believe. You laugh and you love!

Fear of the Unknown

Last night as I was getting ready for bed, I thought of my journey in life so far. It has not been an easy path, but I have learned so much about myself as a person. I have grown and taken leaps of faith. I have learned to trust the process. God has a purpose and a plan for our life don’t give up. Life is beautiful, and yes sometimes is not always so bright. However, opening our eyes, walking step by step, listening to our heart, speaking truth, and being able to breathe has given me the ability to be grateful. I have always been scared of the unknown, I fear not knowing what tomorrow holds. I am still learning to trust in God and not fear of my future. I am growing and learning. I am outstanding, I am intelligent, I am beautiful, and I live a life with purpose. Be kind and loving to yourself everyday.