Learning to Trust

Wow, it has been a while since I have last posted, almost an entire year. It has been a whole busy year focusing at work, and school. Trying to seek balance in life has not been easy. I had started my practicum last year, so that kept me really busy. I am currently, still seeing clients as a student counselor, and working full time, and going to school. How do I manage, you may ask? Well, I have a support system. I could not do it on my own. My husband is a huge support, and motivates me when I am feeling discouraged. Life has taught us a lot of lessons. Life challenges are lessons that need to be learned in order to grow, or to take us to the next level in life. I am currently in a stage of learning. I am learning to trust the process, and most importantly trusting in God. It is easy to tell people to just trust in the Lord, and everything will be okay, because we are not physically going through the same trials as our neighbor, it is not our lesson to learn. However, when you are on your knees begging for strength to keep going, and to put all your problems to God, it is when He lift us up, and hugs us with His immense love. In that moment of trial you start learning to trust in God. It is a process. Every lesson learned takes time. Some days will be easier than others. For example, I don’t become a counselor by taking one class, and then BOOM I get my license. Even though that would have been great, I would have save a lot of money, and time, but then I wouldn’t be an adequate counselor. However, I am starting to trust the process, and that each stage I have challenges that will equip me to be a wife, a daughter, a sister, and a counselor. Learn to trust the process. 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. – Proverbs 3:5

Listen to the Whisper of Love

Laughing our problems away. There were times I would take life so seriously, and wanted life according to society’s timeline. I know a lot of people have said “everyone has their own time line and to not get caught up with what society wants”. I understood soon enough that life was not a rush nor a competition. I had to take one step at a time. I had to stop at every step and enjoy it. I always had a an agenda with goals and plans of life. And boy, if that did not go accordingly to my plans, I would freak, and get anxious. However, this year I have let life be. Just going with the flow and started accepting where I am in life, and visualizing where I wanted to be without compromising myself or people around me. We are all uniquely different, and have so many gifts to share with this world. Gifts are not always materialistic things, it is sharing your love, joy, and kindness to others. Sometimes people just want someone to just listen, and to be there. You don’t always have to understand the thoughts or acts of people. You can listen and love.

Growth

I am a human with so many flaws. I have gained and lost friends. It’s part of life as we grow older and develop into our new stage of life. Each stage it’s so crucial, you will not only learn so much about yourself, but you learn how much your presence can affect others. I have to remind myself to keep on pushing. If I am breathing than I need to live a beautiful life. There are moments in my life that I feel behind or left out within the generations. Growing into a positive mindset takes time, and practice. Trusting the process of our destiny. We don’t always wake up everyday and like the persona that is reflected in the mirror. Sometimes we will feel discouraged, and even contemplate life. Everyone has doubted their purpose in life once.

I encourage you to keep pushing and breathing this beautiful life. Be yourself, and always stand to what you believe in. Always trust the purpose. A tree grows every year, and regardless of the changes in the environment, it evolves within the seasons each year. A tree will never stop being a tree during cold winter days. So you will never stop being you regardless of your environment changes. You will grow, and evolve exactly where you need to be in life.

Fear of the Unknown

Last night as I was getting ready for bed, I thought of my journey in life so far. It has not been an easy path, but I have learned so much about myself as a person. I have grown and taken leaps of faith. I have learned to trust the process. God has a purpose and a plan for our life don’t give up. Life is beautiful, and yes sometimes is not always so bright. However, opening our eyes, walking step by step, listening to our heart, speaking truth, and being able to breathe has given me the ability to be grateful. I have always been scared of the unknown, I fear not knowing what tomorrow holds. I am still learning to trust in God and not fear of my future. I am growing and learning. I am outstanding, I am intelligent, I am beautiful, and I live a life with purpose. Be kind and loving to yourself everyday.

Be Grateful

Life will not be easy. You will be weary. There are times in my life I feel with so much potential and strength to overcome obstacles. Other times I do not feel motivated to show up to my regular schedule. I have learn to show up, and be there, see where the world will take me. Observe your surrounding and where you are at the moment, and just be grateful. A special moment in time will not occur twice. Breathe, live, and be grateful. You are Blessed.

New Blessings

As the year comes to an end, I have realized the blessings God has poured in to my life this year. There were times of trials, and hardships, but God always manifested His Glory. This year I learned to be patient, and actually listen to my close ones. I always had a plan in my life. It made me feel secure about myself. However, most of my plans would not come through, and it would upset me. Until I realized no matter how angry or upset I would get, some moments were out of my control. I decided to give up trying to put all the pieces of my life together, and let God take control, because His plans will always be better than my own. It might not make sense right now, but one day this piece of my life will explain itself.